safety zone's right here

i'm here so i don't write elsewhere. i'm here so my time's not wasted and i make more of an annoyance to the one i'm trying to attract. my time now has been hers. i want to breathe her in and exhale this feeling in my gut of all the years wasted. i can see you, i don't want to be your second best, i don't want to be someone in the crowd, i don't want to be alone, but if i have to be free i'd rather be me. 
i haven't offered anything or given any hint. i've tried just the opposite and not let on a thing. the reason i have, the fear i have, the doubt i have, keep me from you. i haven't looked deep enough to see who you really are, some kind of superstar. i love the you that i do know now and continue to know. 
yes, i walked away from you, left without a word. i thought you had disappeared until i seen the love you walked away from but are still so close to. maybe you didn't notice, maybe you didn't care, maybe you thought i'd catch you just a little nit later... i didn't... and now i'm here so i won't "go there."


as i watched you i thought to myself how much i wanted to hold you. when you got closer i thought about how much i wanted to kiss you. as i climbed into my new sheets i could only think how badly i wanted you here. the softness on ,my skin makes me crave you. dreaming up tainted thoughts of what you might taste like. i want to pull you in and make you want more. i want you to give into me and let me release you. i want to reach inside you and feel you on my fingertips clamping down as they slip in and out of your desire. that pulsating feeling you feel right now is what i want to suck out of you. i want to hear my name screamed by you as you reach your height of climax... and at that i can't stop because hearing you only makes my hunger grow stronger. 


and so, now you know my thoughts... now you understand my distance.